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01 February 2011 @ 06:50 pm
fanmixes | LOST | pursuit of happiness (kate) | welcome home (jack)  

pursuit of happiness | a kate austen fanmix
10 tracks + cover art

welcome home | a jack shephard fanmix
10 tracks + cover art

intended as part of lost_land's Big Bang challenge.

warning: finale spoiler in the notes.

Notes: Though, of course, connected, these two mixes were not originally meant to be 100% complimentary. By that I just mean they can stand as their own independent entities (they're not two sides to one album, etc.), and mostly this is due to differences in structure. Pursuit of Happiness moves backwards and forwards, zig-zagging from pre-Oceanic flight 815 through Kate's life on and off the Island (the first time, and the last time). Welcome Home more or less follows a straightforward chronology starting from season four (right smack dab in the middle of beard of sorrow woes) through to Jack's death. And after.

Though they both do, Pursuit of Happiness ended up having a more noticeably romantic bent to it - predominately Kate/Jack (natch), but also a bit of Kate/Sawyer. I know which songs the later are for me, but I like leaving the majority of fanmixy interpretation up to the listener. I'm inclined to think that everything falls 100% within the walls of canon in these (though clearly any post-Island songs are their own can of worms), but maybe you'll hear something different. The same rules apply for Welcome Home, re: Jack/Kate + elements of Jack/Juliet. Anyway.

These are mixes about Kate and Jack, and, simply, their stories.


01. here sometimes | blonde redhead
a little girl upon the fireplace
only air flying emotionless
ring the bells for she could keep flying
this is me, completely me
end of day we watched the sun go down
i can see you're like a firework
you want to save me, people will save me
but this is you, completely you
now it's day, but i am dreaming
a man walks by
i want to be his wife
i'm only here sometimes under the tree of life
i'm only good sometimes

02. disappear | my brightest diamond
one day i may go for the longest walk
don't be too surprised
cause i get tired of noisy alarms and phone bills
one day i may go for the longest walk
don't be too shocked
cause i get tired of sneaky societies and combat boots
and i don't think we're meant to stay here very long
i don't dream of bringing heaven down
not like this
i'd rather move on

03. wicked game | giant drag
world was on fire
no one could save me but you
strange what desire will make foolish people do
i never dreamed that i'd meet somebody like you
i never dreamed that i'd lose somebody
and i don't wanna fall in love
(this love is only gonna break your heart)

04. in this city | enon (deadverse remix)
we found ourselves none in this city
you said our songs's cruel, it sounds hissy
night lights are swayed on
circle and turn around, a closer sky
my name feel feel and feel all tight
my name feel feel your love was right
attraction leeches, but never ever dies
we're leaving next week, behind your risky eyes

05. on my shoulders | the do
why do i always help you carry your boulders
you wonder why i carry such a weight on my shoulders
when you know that i've never been familiar with orders
when you know that my heart is in a pretty disorder
and someday you'll see that all i want is to please
next time i'll try it another way
how long will i sit and wait like a soldier
how many summers will it take
how many summers will i wait
how many shoulders will i break
why would i carry such a weight on my shoulders
why am i always by your side when you're down

06. cicadas | cowboy junkies
hear them buzzing in the trees
nothing left but empty shells
no memory now of where we fell
no one left to truly tell
once again the simple truth
is crushed beneath the leather boot
no trees here to hide behind
those big red wheels they slowly grind

07. love will tear us apart | worm is green
when routine bites hard and ambitions are low
and resentment rides high but emotions won't grow
and we're changing our ways
taking different roads
do you cry out in your sleep
all my failings exposed
get a taste in my mouth as desperation takes hold
is it something so good just can't function no more
when love, love will tear us apart again

08. blangee blee | land of talk
you pull it to the right and i bring it back to center
i blame it on your pride and you blame it on my temper
we'd spend our lives making out middles
to give so much got me so little
for all that was said i believe it wasn't spoken
you sang it to the wall but the tune it wasn't holding
my guess it wasn't bound to the spine, to the spindle
for all i lead you from i'm the coroner, the cripple

09. wide-eyed, legless | laura veirs
down among the dead
the wide-eyed and the legless only half a head
half a mouth to laugh from the porthole
with the more than faded epitaphs
will you ever more pull out the splinters from my toes?
i don't think so
out in the hornet rain the swarming stingers
pumping poison through my veins
lacking on the star-crossed lover's map
take the beating lash, lash for lash

10. pursuit of happiness | lissie
looking ahead
no turning back
if i fall, if i die, know i lived it to the fullest
if i fall, if i die, know i lived and missed some bullets
tell me what you know about dreaming, dreaming
you don't really know about nothing, nothing
tell me what you know about the night terrors every night
five am, cold sweats, waking up to the skies
tell me what you know about dreams, dreams
tell me what you know about night terrors nothing
you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow
you'd rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow
i'm on the pursuit of happiness and i know
everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey
i'll be fine once I get it
i'll be good

01. home | wintersleep
so glad to be back home
be back home
i can't stay too long
the winter hit so hard
hurt so hard
every little part
hurt so hard

02. rush minute | massive attack
i wanna be clean but i gotta get high
it's good to be here so hard to come by
you bring pain cause you got game
and needles and pins a man can't take
steal your tears and drown your fears
all is clear in a glass of beer
you fill me with endorphins
and you star in magazines
got more highs you and me
and deluxe rooms in recovery

03. far enough away | i am arrows
running on a wall
trying to keep my feet warm when it's cold
getting it wrong again
doing exactly what we're told
watching bottles on a wall
they're inviting me to watch them when they fall
getting it wrong again
am i far enough away?
am I far enough away for you today?
running from the wall
trying to do the right thing by you all
getting it wrong again
now i'm waiting on a word
telling us to get away while we can

04. floating in the forth | frightened rabbit
and the door shut shut
i was vacuum packed
shrink-wrapped out of air
and the spine collapsed
and the eyes rolled back
to stare at my starving brain
and fully clothed, i'll float away
down the forth, into the sea
i think i'll save suicide for another day
and i half run away to sleep
on a rolled up coat against the window
with the strobe of the sun
and the life i've led
i'll steer myself through choppy waves
as manic gulls scream it's okay
take your life, give it a shake
gather up all your loose change

05. welcome home, son | radical face
sleep don't visit, so i choke on sun
and the days blur into one
and the backs of my eyes hum with things I've never done
ships are launching from my chest
some have names but most do not
if you find one, please let me know what piece i've lost
heal the scars from off my back
i don't need them anymore
you can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars
i've come home
all my nightmares escaped my head
bar the door, please don't let them in
you were never supposed to leave
now my head's splitting at the seams
and I don't know if I can

06. you must be out of your mind | the magnetic fields
if you think you can leave the past behind
you must be out of your mind
if you think you can simply press rewind
you must be out of your mind, son
you must be out of your mind
you want what you've turned off turned on
you call it sunset, now it's dawn
you can't go 'round just saying stuff
because it's pretty

07. you got us into this mess | immaculate machine
i know what you're thinking
that i've finally gone over, right over the edge
you don't see reasons just the trail of fire
bridges that were burned, now it's down to the wire
you got us into this mess
you're going to to get us out
i know what you're thinking
what depths do your selfishness
drag us all down, too
but stupidity's the mother of adventure
it could have gone my way
oh, any other day
but you'll say
you got us into this mess
get us out

08. cities beneath the sea | gravenhurst
i live on both sides of the mirror
feel the pain that destruction brings
i want to help put everything in its place
i want to destroy everything
there are cities underneath cities
cities beneath the sea
in deserted towns and burial mounds
there is beauty that no-one will see
and the magic of stones when taken back home
is left on the beach

09. cleanse song | bright eyes
don't forget what you've learned
all you give is returned
and if life seems absurd
what you need is some laughter
and a season to sleep
on a detox walk through a glendale park
over sidewalk chalk
someone wrote in red, "start over"
like a meeting of chance
with the train station glance
many lifetimes have passed
in a instant reminded

10. head rolls off | frightened rabbit
i believe in a house in the clouds
and god's got his dead friends 'round
he's painted all the walls red
to remind them they're all dead
and you know when it's all gone
something carries on
and it's not morbid at all
when my blood stops
someone else's will not
while i'm alive
i'll make tiny changes to earth

mix 1 .zip on megaupload | mediafire

mix 2 .zip on megaupload | mediafire

Check out the memories for more.

mood: blankblank
tunes: fleetwood mac - tusk
more_lemonade: Misfits - Nathan - sadmore_lemonade on February 2nd, 2011 02:00 am (UTC)
This looks amazing. Listening right now, thank you!
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: we run we jump we swimohvienna on February 2nd, 2011 02:36 am (UTC)
Thank you! Hope you enjoy 'em. :)
cortexiphan juice box: [lost] you are a runnerhollywoodgrrl on February 2nd, 2011 01:44 pm (UTC)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: you got us into this messohvienna on February 2nd, 2011 03:43 pm (UTC)
TY BB (I hope you like the Jack one lemme know :)).
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chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: sunglasses at nightohvienna on February 2nd, 2011 08:31 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! :))
jørgenvetica on February 3rd, 2011 03:02 am (UTC)

chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: left behindohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 04:27 am (UTC)
I'm mildly obsessed with that font right now [And I have a tendency to slap it on everything because me and text usually don't get along very well, lol]).

And, dude, thank you muchly! I can't even tell you how super happy it makes me that you like. And I hope you enjoy listening, too. :))
Jen: misc the endjazzfic on February 3rd, 2011 07:30 am (UTC)
These both look wonderful -- thank you for sharing!
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: and you can run foreverohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 01:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you!! ♥ Hope you enjoy listening. :)
sun gladiator arihariboo on February 3rd, 2011 03:01 pm (UTC)
These look so good! And I love the cover art. Gonna go download.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: technically legalohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 04:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much indeed! ♥ Hope you enjoy them! :))
mariana.mareeana on February 3rd, 2011 08:15 pm (UTC)
I'm still lost (no pun, NO PUN!) somewhere in the beginning of season 2 (I... don't like the beginning of S2, never have, and it's making it hard for me to progress) but I will get to see these awesome-ass journeys in time and while I don't I'm taking this anyway because I, as always, bow down to you as my fanmixing goddess and snag whatever it is you decide to offer to the Internet, in the knowledge that it is awesome.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: poison beerohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 09:12 pm (UTC)
Really? What episode are you at? But it has Sawyer fighting off sharks and his sexy...um...bullet wound infection! Anyway, no, I getcha. It's super cool that you're giving the thing a whirl in the first place, oh my god. ;)

But woot! Thanks for taking anyway as it makes me all happy-like that you hold my srs bsns fanmixes in such esteem! Enjoy 'em! :)
mariana.mareeana on February 3rd, 2011 09:32 pm (UTC)
I'm somewhere in the middle of Everybody Hates Hugo, I think. I just find the Tailies so boring, I think that's my problem. But I will keep watching, I will! I've seen all of S2 already anyway, possibly more than once, which is another issue with me because I think unexpected things are going to happen and then I realise I actually know all the plot points already. I don't believe Sawyer has fought off a shark yet though, will be on the lookout for that! YUM YUM. I'm serious. Katie. I don't know how this happened. I always liked Sawyer but THIS AMOUNT OF LOVE, IT'S UNNATURAL. And I'd just like to say thank you because clearly the Quadralangle (is that right?) of Love is the answer to all my Lost problems since I was always shipping whatever the show was doing at the moment with those four and not being able to make up my mind. They need to get together and have an orgy, for true.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: detective jim ohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 09:41 pm (UTC)
I love the Tailies. Cannot sympathize! The Other 48 Days is one of my favorite episodes. (And I am a freak of LOST fandom nature as I love Ana Lucia.)

All the angles work in different ways, for honest and true.

And, I'll say it again, it's not unnatural, my friend! Have you seen me, or? ;)
steam pipe trunk distribution venue: lost; i used a sewing machinespyglass_ on February 3rd, 2011 09:05 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, these are gorgeous. I adore your cover art and song choices. I can't wait to listen.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: no. that's not how you know meohvienna on February 3rd, 2011 09:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Very much hope you enjoy listening. :)
you could be my unintended lovesweet_iolanthe on February 7th, 2011 01:53 am (UTC)
crying. this is fantastic. getting it. thanks so much!
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: standing on the cornerohvienna on February 7th, 2011 04:16 am (UTC)
Thank you! Hope you enjoy listening. :))
it's all chemistry of a car crashvanouria on February 12th, 2011 07:33 am (UTC)
wow these are seriously beautiful. awesome awesome job!!
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: beach tableauohvienna on February 12th, 2011 03:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!! Enjoy. :)
weeaboo: olivia - grrjaded56 on February 13th, 2011 07:45 pm (UTC)
Ahh! This is amazing. Love the art + songs (YAY WINTERSLEEP!)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: fringe: bamf alertohvienna on February 14th, 2011 05:20 am (UTC)
Love love love Wintersleep. :))) And thank you! (Hope you enjoy listening. :))
Erica: EPICCCC!forever_erica on October 25th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
WOW. THIS IS FUCKIN' AWESOMEEEEEEE. DL'ing THIS RIGHT NOW! Thank you so much for this. The graphics and the song selection is incredible.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: lost: no. that's not how you know meohvienna on October 25th, 2011 07:08 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! Hope you enjoy listening to them! :)