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10 May 2011 @ 12:36 am
fanmix | V | Jack/Erica  





postcards from purgatory | a jack/erica mix
8 tracks + cover art




NOTES: Wish fulfillment fanmix. Ideas that I loved about Erica and Jack, and a (different) conception of them as friends, and then as a ship. Jack's choices re: involving himself in the rebellion; that the path he was walking could have involved greater moral conflict/ambiguity, taking more actions in the face of/against firmly held beliefs (despite the inner struggle) for the war, and for Erica. Not always talking her out of a plan, for saying yes more instead of no. I do love him being Erica's moral compass and their canon relationship, a light in her world as it grows darker and darker still. But at the same time, there's a part of me that wishes I could also see an opposite route play out, one that would eventually lead to a more than platonic relationship between them (not to say that what's going on in canon wouldn't/couldn't go there, as well). That's where the real heart, and point, of this mix lies. That minefield. The struggles they'd both go through progressing towards having ~the sex~ /Miranda voice. I don't care when you set this concept in terms of s1 or s2, but I think it holds more interest with the notion that he's still a priest in an official capacity. (Hell, the whole being stripped of priestliness doesn't even need to factor in. [And, at the end of the day, he was forced out. Going down this different road...would he eventually have made the choice to leave himself?])

A mix for a moral battle. A crisis of faith.

But, who am I kidding? It's really music for sex in a confessional.


(Under the watchful eye of Jesus. Bang the priest.)











What do you know about heartbreak, Father?

I've been in love before. I wasn't born with this collar on.





01. night time | the xx

can i confess these things to you
well I don't know
embedded in my chest
and it hurts to hold
and i couldn't spill my heart
my eyes gleam looking in from the dark
i walk out in stormy weather
hope my words keep us together
steady walking but bound to trip
should release but just tighten my grip


02. these rituals of mine | choir of young believers

you baptize me in your love
these rituals of mine
like crystals in your eyes
they'll just always be around


03. everything is ok | halou

disregard your inner monologue
don't try to drown it out
because it'll only wear you out
sometimes things are just beyond control
that has to be ok
and i'm so tired
of you constantly over-thinking
just your style to break it all into pieces
everything is unacceptable
if you over-analyze


04. burning | wild beasts

i'm saved
you pull my fingers off the deck
you pluck me wriggling from the rain
i'm saved
you cast me up into the wind
you shove my body from the skin
i'm saved
the fire looking at the warmth
you drag me burning 'cross a court
i'm ashamed
lying fallen on some step
clutching at the empty air

i'm awake
i see you walk into the room


05. early in the morning | wintersleep

staring through the candle
staring through the people
hiding in our bodies
drifting in these vessels
i say it loud and clear
dont know if i believe it
tonight i want your body
dont give a fuck about your spirit
how you gonna lie to yourself?
how you gonna lie?
tell me there's a violence here
tell me that there's nothing inside

i can feel your fingers close
i can feel your falling clothes
tell me that there's nothing
tell me that you don't know


06. postcard from purgatory | the dears

we have not wasted all
all of our lives
empty heads
empty hearts
empty souls


07. everlasting light | the black keys

let me be your everlasting light
your sun when there is none
i'm a shepherd for you
and i'll guide you through
let me be your everlasting light

let me be your everlasting light
your home when there is cold
in me you can confide
when no one's by your side
let me be your everlasting light


08. paradise stars | noah and the whale

instrumental



.zip on mediafire | megaupload

 
 
mood: thirstythirsty
tunes: the black keys - everlasting light
 
 
 
Jenny: X-Files: M/S/Baseball  Hips before handseveningflares on May 10th, 2011 04:52 am (UTC)
Snagging. :)
Gorgeous cover art! And I've never heard any of these songs before so looking forward to listening.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: golden waterfallsohvienna on May 10th, 2011 05:01 am (UTC)
Thank you!! (And I hope you enjoy the new tunes. :))
double-oh-well: key / iconomiconno_detective on May 10th, 2011 05:43 am (UTC)
Never watched the show, but... um... you had me at "sex in a confessional" and the stunning cover art.

Thank you for the music. :)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: a man in uniformohvienna on May 10th, 2011 05:55 am (UTC)
You're very welcome! And if only the show had gone there. If. Only. ;) :)

(Enjoy the mix!)
spinning plate: vnavras_rheya on May 10th, 2011 06:01 am (UTC)
THIS. IS. PERFECT. Especially your note beforehand. I want all of those things for these two.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: a man in uniformohvienna on May 10th, 2011 06:27 am (UTC)
Bwah! Thank you so much! I'm stoked that you think so. I'd kill to see all this play out somehow. Not that I don't also dig the developments/relationship between them as they stand in s2 - but when I first started V, I thought things might lean more towards business such as the above (as it stands, he's pretty much her [for the most part] unwavering voice of reason/tether to humanity, but I'd love to see him even more conflicted regarding his faith [having it/keeping it] in general in the face of everything they're fighting, and, of course, re: his feelings for Erica.)
then start your engines: [v] the thunder in your heartaetenae on May 10th, 2011 01:59 pm (UTC)
I'm SO snagging this. I want V to come back only for her to slap him out of the state he ended up, that blissed stuff. And then they can have sex :D
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: golden waterfallsohvienna on May 10th, 2011 03:24 pm (UTC)
YES. Yes, please and thank you to all of the above. (Also, enjoy the mix! :))
Heather: sw-i've got a bad feeling about thishjea on May 10th, 2011 02:09 pm (UTC)
Hey, Wintersleep! Score one for something I know. ;D

But, omg, THESE TWO. Perfect ideas for them, balancing each other's light and darkness and having it all go to hell anyway. AND THEN DOING IT. HNNG. THINGS I WANT REALLY BADLY.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: a man in uniformohvienna on May 10th, 2011 03:29 pm (UTC)
I think i've put Wintersleep on at least two or three of my last fanmixes (along with Frightened Rabbit). So good. So good.

I REALLY WANT THESE THINGS, HEATHER. balancing each other's light and darkness and having it all go to hell anyway. Would just love to see this version of events play out between them. I like moral compass guy, but I also like this tangent in which he compass gets a bit smashed and broken a hell of a lot.
Heather: sw-i've got a bad feeling about thishjea on May 10th, 2011 03:48 pm (UTC)
FRIGHTENED RABBIT. I could go on about how much I love them ("Floating in the Forth" makes me miss Edinburgh SO MUCH). It's not always the best music to have on all the time, though. My parents came back from church this week when I was playing the album on the backporch, trying to act completely ignorant of the fact that the lyrics playing were it takes more than fucking someone to keep warm. AWKWARD. ;D

But yes! Erica and Jack. Two broken people not being able to do much more than be broken together (in a two beautiful people way). WANT!
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: just looked out the windowohvienna on May 10th, 2011 04:01 pm (UTC)
That was on my LOST mix for Jack. And, lol, boo to awkberg parent moments. But they're so great; so many Feelings listening to them.

You're also making me have too many Feelings with the way in which you're talking about the relationship between these two. FEELINGS.
olivia, i supposelivlovlaugh on May 10th, 2011 02:20 pm (UTC)
This is gorgeous!! The cover art and the song choices. Really well done. :)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: welcome to the warohvienna on May 10th, 2011 03:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you!! Hope you enjoy listening. :)
[c]: vnyaza on May 11th, 2011 01:08 am (UTC)
wow, this is both gorgeous and amazing ♥
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: golden waterfallsohvienna on May 11th, 2011 03:42 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
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chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: a man in uniformohvienna on May 11th, 2011 03:42 am (UTC)
Thank you! Enjoy the mix! :)
kaitlia777: V -- J&E Profileskaitlia777 on May 11th, 2011 01:25 am (UTC)
Incredible work! Totally downloading.

I love the whole forbidden aspect of their relationship.

:) And I say love, present tense because I'm sending good vibes, praying the show gets renewed. Also, even defrocked, a priest is still bound by nhis vow of chastity. They have to petition the pope seperately to be released from that vow... Forbidden fruit still applies :)

Edited at 2011-05-11 01:30 am (UTC)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: welcome to the warohvienna on May 11th, 2011 03:51 am (UTC)
Thanks!! Hope you enjoy listening! :)

Re: forbidden aspect: Me. Too. And there's a fact that managed to slip by me even after 12 years of Catholic school! Official, unofficial - I just love the inner turmoil (for both of them, really, but especially Jack) that accompanies the idea of these two takings steps (thought through, or impulsively, or a little of both) into a more-than-platonic relationship.
kaitlia777: V -- J&E kiss manip 2kaitlia777 on May 11th, 2011 04:17 am (UTC)
Several of my V fics have to do with them dealing with the forbidden...sometimes giving in and sometimes not :)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: golden waterfallsohvienna on May 11th, 2011 12:42 pm (UTC)
!!!! Approval ratings.

harder, harder, hardest; i am the artist: dr who -- rory | specs [close-up]radiantbaby on May 11th, 2011 11:53 am (UTC)
Definitely snagging. This ship is such a guilty pleasure of mine.
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: a man in uniformohvienna on May 11th, 2011 12:40 pm (UTC)
Thanks for snagging! Enjoy the mix! :) (And, yeah, we're all on the good ship straight to hell. ;))
jaiyleyjaiyley on May 18th, 2011 01:52 am (UTC)
I just gave this mix a listen and I absolutely love every single song. So fricking beautiful. Thank you so much for this loveliness. :)
chug-a-lug, donna: tv: v: golden waterfallsohvienna on May 18th, 2011 07:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Love hearing back once someone's listened - very happy you enjoyed the mix. :) Thanks again!